A Confession

I think it is time for a confession. I started this blog so I could write honestly and openly about my life but I am sorry to say, my adoring public, that I have been lying to you all along. Well, lying through omission. Since the very start of this blog, all that time ago, I have been omitting one, very important, fact about my life. Its time I came clean.

The truth is I am not enjoying my PhD, so much so that I have decided not to complete it. phew, I'v said it. Feels better now.

In reality there is a long list of reasons why im not staying to finish my project (filled half a page of A4 when me & Joni wrote it down) but ultimately the most important reason is I am not very into this project. To complete a PhD you have to be really into your project. I mean it, really REALLY into your project. I am surrounded by people who love their work. All they talk about is work, all they do is work. They stay late at night, they go in at weekends, and they find it weird that I don't. At first I just thought they were a bunch of workaholics but I soon realised that actually, they had it right and I had it wrong. If Im not inspired enough by my project to do that level of work I will never write a good PhD. Not one I can be really proud of, and if I am going to write a book, I want to be proud of it.

Luckily, because I is awesome (stole that phrase from Joni, who stole it from some pop TV im sure) I can write up a masters and get an MPhil, so I get a whole new bit of paper that says I am clever and become even more unemployable! Woo hoo!

Its been a tough couple of months, and its about to get much tougher, but to cut a long story short, Joni will be home on the 10th November. Joni, Me and Tay will be bombing it down from the great North with all our stuff on the 10th November, ready to become another 2 of the 1 million unemployed 18 - 25 year olds in the UK. Technically I will still be writing up for another couple of months (5th Jan, scary!), and as such will be popping back up to St Andrews for a while, but mostly soon me and Joni will be English again!! Hurra!!